When we are denying our feelings, We are denying the truth

        A person who loves you unconditionally without looking at your weaknesses, he treated you as if you are his whole world, he loves you the way you are, for him you are perfect.

        He is that shy guy who was once a stranger to you and slowly became your 24/7 stalker in university campus and even on social networking sites. He never gives up to be with you even though was rejected a couple of time. There is more than a reason to give up on me but he never do so. He text you most of the night to check out on you and called you just to hear your voice because he is thousand miles away from you.


        Slowly you realise that you had fall in love with him but then there is a barrier that makes me lie to him about my feelings towards him. That is really hurting him and also myself a lot. I cried sometimes thinking about us. A person that you loves so much and he just pop out of your mind most of the time no matter where you are, and everything just reminds you of him. Why couldn't we be together like in fairy tales. Why would life be so complicated??



7 Dec 2014

       The day where he asked my feelings toward him, whether I loves him like he do or not. I was hesitating to give the answer a yes or no. I was so afraid to give him a yes even though I knew that I had fall in love with him.The fact is that I love everything about him except that we couldn't be together .It was hurt to give that answer because I wouldn't want to lose him. So, he just reply me an "ök" and since then he stop texting me.

        It was really hurt like a knife that was stabbed directly into your heart because the person who text you every night never send you a single message for more than a month and you were like a fool waiting for his message. I know that both of us were stubborn to be the first to send a text.
I was so hurt because we both love each other but we just couldn't be together. I cried most of the night.


Today, 13 Jan 2015

My friends ( also his best friends) asked me about him and I just went speechless. Didn't know how to answer them. So, I just smile but deep down inside me, I was so sad. I am missing him so badly.

Would suppressing our emotion and not expressing our love toward the person you like because of some reason be doing the right thing? I'm so confuse now...maybe our fairy tale story would be just in our dreams. :'(

#confusegirl#sad#misshimbadly#maybethisshouldbejustadream