Too tired but can't sleep

Today is just another Monday.

As usual after class, I would just lie down on the bed to take a nap. But everytime when I try to sleep, I will just start imagining things.

Maybe I was just so worry about a lot of things. My brain just feel so sleepy but every time when I lie down on my bed, I will just start thinking of so many things especially about him. It's like something that will haunt you for my lifetime.

Sometimes I would just wish my brain will be like a memory card so that I could delete every single memories that make me feel sad and worry. ;(

I wish I could turn back time where he used to be a stranger to me during my fresh year in university. Everything would be so much easier and happier for me. 

#insomnia

Public Holiday

        Today was a public holiday for Negeri Sembilan. So me and my friends decided to go to IOI City Mall for movie and foods.

Yan mei, Me, Shangkary  (from left)

        We arrive at 12 something and went for our lunch at a burger shop. I have heard from my friends that the burger there is huge and delicious. So I decided to give it a try!

       I had ordered a lamb supreme burger and it cost RM14+ RM 3 for the drink.We waited for around 15 minutes for the burger.

Ask me? How was the burger?

I would like to say. The burger was so delicious compared to Mc Donald.

The Lamb meat was so juicy and you just can’t stop enjoying every single bite of the burger. The lamb meat is so tender and soft and it’s suitable for all ages of people because it was so easy to chew. I definitely will go there again next time. Yummy!

        Afterthat, we wanted to go for a movie but to bad the cinema had not open ceremony yet because IOI City Mall was newly open end of last year. 

So, we decided to go to the famous Magnum ice cream shop. I was like finally its my turn to try the Ice cream after seeing so many people posted it on Facebook. 

We ordered 4 different types and shared it among 5 of us.

For me, the ice cream was nice but it’s too sweet. So if you guys dislike sweet things, I would like to recommend you to share the ice cream.

We had a great day overall!

When we are denying our feelings, We are denying the truth

        A person who loves you unconditionally without looking at your weaknesses, he treated you as if you are his whole world, he loves you the way you are, for him you are perfect.

        He is that shy guy who was once a stranger to you and slowly became your 24/7 stalker in university campus and even on social networking sites. He never gives up to be with you even though was rejected a couple of time. There is more than a reason to give up on me but he never do so. He text you most of the night to check out on you and called you just to hear your voice because he is thousand miles away from you.


        Slowly you realise that you had fall in love with him but then there is a barrier that makes me lie to him about my feelings towards him. That is really hurting him and also myself a lot. I cried sometimes thinking about us. A person that you loves so much and he just pop out of your mind most of the time no matter where you are, and everything just reminds you of him. Why couldn't we be together like in fairy tales. Why would life be so complicated??



7 Dec 2014

       The day where he asked my feelings toward him, whether I loves him like he do or not. I was hesitating to give the answer a yes or no. I was so afraid to give him a yes even though I knew that I had fall in love with him.The fact is that I love everything about him except that we couldn't be together .It was hurt to give that answer because I wouldn't want to lose him. So, he just reply me an "ök" and since then he stop texting me.

        It was really hurt like a knife that was stabbed directly into your heart because the person who text you every night never send you a single message for more than a month and you were like a fool waiting for his message. I know that both of us were stubborn to be the first to send a text.
I was so hurt because we both love each other but we just couldn't be together. I cried most of the night.


Today, 13 Jan 2015

My friends ( also his best friends) asked me about him and I just went speechless. Didn't know how to answer them. So, I just smile but deep down inside me, I was so sad. I am missing him so badly.

Would suppressing our emotion and not expressing our love toward the person you like because of some reason be doing the right thing? I'm so confuse now...maybe our fairy tale story would be just in our dreams. :'(

#confusegirl#sad#misshimbadly#maybethisshouldbejustadream

New Year, New Beginning- Back to Student life!

Had a great 1 month holiday but happiness won't last forever..

Oh no, not again! Monday blue..as usual I was so lazy on the first day of class for every semester.

Back to student life!

Wake up early in the morning > clean up yourself > Munch a biscuit and a drink cup of cereal> go to class> eat > study > sleep> repeat the whole thing all over again.
What a boring life. 

I just miss the moment in my early semester where I always used to hang out with friends at night just to go for a drink, chit chat, play cards and so on. We do that often in our early semester. 
Now our student life started to gets boring.

There's nothing that motivates me to go to class. 

Well, nothing much to talk about. Life just need to go on.

Write again soon and Happy New Year 2015 once again!!:)