It’s around one year my dad go
for dialysis.
# THROWBACK #
It was one of the day in April
2013, I found out that my dad was diagnosed with kidney failure. Both of his
kidney failed to function. I knew that something wrong is going on with him the
few weeks back because his face seems to be worry and stress out. His leg
starts to have a bit of black marks and it get worse day by day.
One day, I tried to talk to him and ask him
what’s going on. He didn’t want to tell us the truth because he knows that we
will be sad if we knows his condition. Finally after persuade him, he told us
about his health.
He only
went to the government hospital for regular check-up. I felt sad inside seeing
my dad taking more than 10 tablets per time but it seems like he’s getting
worse. So my dad decided to go to the
private hospital for check-up and what the doctor told him is to immediately
stop taking the tablets that the government hospital gave because it’s spoiling
his kidney. After a few check-up, the doctor persuade him to go a dialysis
because both of his kidney is totally fail to function which is so dangerous
for him. That time, my heart felt like broken into pieces knowing that my dad’s
kidney was totally fail.
The
doctor said that he need to have at least one kidney to help him in filtering blood
to filter out all the toxins in the body and he can find a donor. That time, my
brother and I thought of donating a kidney to my dad but he wouldn’t want to
accept because he said we are still young and still have a long journey to go.
He said when he first get to know that he have
kidney failure, he couldn’t accept it. He didn’t want to go for dialysis
because he can’t live a normal life like others. He need to go for dialysis 3
times per week and around 6 hours per day. He said it was his biggest regret
not to consult a few doctors.
I
couldn’t control my feeling and sadness every time my friend is talking about
kidney. My heart is like cut by a knife. One day I cried in front of public
because my friend suddenly talk about kidney. I usually can control my feeling
but on that day I didn’t know why my tears just flow down my cheek when I heard
about kidney but I felt better after letting all my sadness out. My friend was
so shock to see me cry because I’m that type of girl who always happy go lucky
in their eyes. Actually they didn’t know that sometimes deep down inside of me
is just a sad girl. I tried to hide my feelings by putting on a fake smile
because I didn’t want my friends to worry about me.
Till now
my dad still goes for dialysis. Sometimes when I was in the dialysis centre
with my dad, my heart is like cutting by a knife. Looking at the nurse poking a
needle into his vain. I knew that he is suffering. Every night, I pray to God
hoping that his kidney will be functioning back and cure him.
I’m glad to know that my uncle is going to donate a kidney
to him and I pray that the operation will be a success. Now, I still continue
praying for my dad and I hope that one day he will live a normal life like us
too.
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