The stress has begun!

I’m so stress out recently with this 2 things! My studies and the events!!

I’m currently a committee for two event. The secretary for Valentines Dedication Set and Hall Master for Glee Music Festival and I need to cope with my studies at the same time. This is very stressful especially when final exam is 3 weeks away and having 3 presentations, 1 test and 1 assignment on your hand and all this need to be done in a week.


Plus when you have an OC which is so demanding for the event. What he want from us is a perfect and flawless event with low budget. I know everyone want things to be perfect but how on earth we can do it with low budget! He asked us to carry out our task and gave us instruction to do for the task, so we followed. But after executing the task, he rebutted and rejected what we have done. He wants everything to be done with only his idea. How can an event be successful without wanting to hear the opinion of his committees?

18 November 2014, that night our hall master department was scolded by him for not having progression in our task and procrastinating. We have hard feeling that night after all that he said but we never complain. This is what life going to be in our working days next time and this is only just an experience for us to face bigger problem and more obstacles in future.


What I have learn from my previous assignment that I have done is that a good leader will listen, and when a leader listen, it motivates their committee to do well.  What I know now is that if I’m a leader next time, I will listen to all my team’s opinion and insight.

Event, Assignment, Test, Presentations and final exam! You are making me stress but I know all this will build a stronger me to face larger obstacles in the future.

Therefore, I would like to say as a student is that we should manage our time well in order to cope with our studies and also involve in event.


Peace No War and Gambateh Brenda! You can do it!

Judge Me?? Wait a second...Look into the mirror first..

People just don’t look into the mirror before judging others. They tend to give comments about other people but they themselves are not perfect. No one in this world is perfect. Even you and I have our own weaknesses. I admit that I do have the bad side of me but I never stop changing myself into a better me.

 We should never stop trying to change ourselves into a better us before you try to change others.

People say even though how hard we try to change, changes are hard to be made because we are born this way.

I disagree with that because when there is a will, there is a way. Everything is possible if you believe that you can change!!

Aren't friends are the ones who accept us the way we are??

There are some friend who never stop making a remark on you even the closest friends around you. I've discover even though how good we are, human never stop judging. It’s human nature to judge. They just take our goodness for granted by taking advantage and judge us by our personality and appearance.

Sometimes we are weak and scare to approach them for their judgement. So we just let people get the best of us, destroy us, and change our opinions on what we believe is true. Only you know what is right for yourself. You have the power, you make the choices and you learn. Each experince we go through in life is a lesson to be learned. We all make mistakes. Why is that so hard for some to understand? No one should be judge by the mistake they have made.

Stopped making negative judgemental about the people you encounter.You never know their true journey of their life. 

Nowadays, it’s hard to find a true friend who does not judge the dark side of you. True friend are like gold and they are hard to find. We should be very glad and appreciate them if we do have one especially those who love us and accept us the way we are.

So change ourselves and stop judging to make the world a better place to stay...When there's no hatred, the world will be peaceful...

Have an awesome Friday Bloggers and yeeehhaaaa tomorrow is a weekend!

Bad sleeping Habits..

Do you know that feeling when you get into bed, fall right to sleep, stay asleep all night and wake up feeling refresh? I have never felt that for years already.

I love to sleep but I never sleep early.
I'm too tired but I just can't sleep.
Enough of sleep is important but I never get enough of sleep.

And the worst thing ever is you make a decision to sleep late at night and wake up in the morning with regret of not sleeping early at night. But still, you do the same thing every night.

I do know that young people nowadays like to have night life. Yes we can have, but not always!!

I'm having this problem of not sleeping early at night since I was in Matriculation College and I think most of the students and teenagers nowadays are facing the same problem as me.

Guess what?
I think we should change this habit to live a better and healthy life.

I started to have this problem since I was in Matric because I think I was stress with my studies because the lecturers there are strict and have high expectation on their student. As time goes by, I'm so used to sleep late at night or even have only an hour of sleep before going to class. I know this is bad for me because this will affect my health and studies. I have tried a few times to change my sleeping cycle but it just doesn't work. 

Therefore, I have came with my 5 sleeping rules and hope this will help.

My 5 rules for me to change my bad habit:

•  Do not take a nap in the evening, unless you are really tired.

•  Put aside your mobile phone at night to prevent you from checking out your phone.

•  Do not drink coffee or tea because it just make your brain feel energetic.

•  Try to empty your brain and not thinking of anything that make you stress while you  are on your bed.

•  Someone told me that drink a cup of hot chocolate might help to sleep better. So do  try this!

So guys and girls, 

Lets change our bad habit together to live a better life!!

Brothers Love- A successful story of Kidney transplant (Dad’s Kidney Transplant)

       A brother would do anything and giving a gift of life to his elder brother and this has shown the love of brothers. My uncle donated a kidney to my dad and we couldn't repay him for his sacrifices. They have a compatible kidney. Sadly, there are more than 20,000 of kidney failure patient in Malaysia is on the waiting list for new kidneys but many will never receive the kidney because there is a shortage of donor.

First Day (Operation Day)

            I woke up early in the morning to visit my dad and uncle before they go into the operation room. Uncle Ken’s operation started at 9am sharp and dad’s operation at 10am.

            That morning I was so nervous, scare and with full of anxiety till I can feel my leg shivering. I saw my uncle went into the operation room. I tried to hold my tears but I couldn’t because I was so scare. So, I cried and I tried to stop crying before my dad went into the operation room because I didn’t want him to worry and see me sad. And so it’s the time for my dad to enter the operation room. The nurses transfer him to the operation bed and discuss the process of the transplant and let us in to give him some moral support. I couldn’t stand seeing him suffering and I cried again. The last thing my dad ask me is “Brenda, are you ok?” I was too scare that I can only nod my head.

            We waited and waited and waited outside the operation room. It was the longest wait ever in my life. We sat down on the seats anxiously hoping that everything will go on smoothly. After 5 hours we thought that the operation has over because the doctor told us that the surgery will take around 4 to 5 hours but we didn’t even see my dad and uncle at all. Therefore, we get nervous but we continue waiting anxiously. That moment we saw the nurses push out the hospital bed, we hope that it was my dad and uncle. Every single time a bed was pushed out and it’s not them, we got even frustrated and getting even more nervous. We even saw a trolley to transfer the patients that had pass away make us even more scare. 

          For me, an hour is like waiting for weeks. Finally after 10 hours, a doctor came out from the operation room and told us that everything was okay and we finally can take a deep breath. I’m really glad to know that the operation was successful and I believe it was God who help and bless us. I also know that there are relatives and friends out there who prayed for us. I believe that when everyone gets together to pray and it is a strong prayer. I couldn’t describe how much I really glad and thankful for all of their prayer.

“Prayer is the cure for a lost soul, a confused mind and a broken heart.”

If you’re tired, sick, emotionally overwhelmed, PRAY.

If you’re lack of direction, PRAY.

If you doubt that prayer makes any difference, PRAY.

            Whatever you do just remember that PRAYER and reading the bible is the strongest weapon that leads us to the correct direction. And always thanks God for everything.

            After the operation, they was send to the ICU burn unit for intensive care and the nurses ask us not to worry everything would be ok. So we went back after that and have a good rest so that we will have strength to take care of them.

After the Operation 

           

           Dad couldn't sleep for the whole night. He was having backache and stomach bloating which is uncomfortable for him. I was so worry and every time I receive a call from hospital is like getting a heart attack.

            It was 2^nd day after the operation, dad called me 1am in the middle of the night and asked me to pray for him to have a good night sleep because he didn't sleep for days and afraid that he might get a stroke. He asked us to visit him in the middle of the night. I was so worried about him because I overheard my mum talk with him through the phone saying that he wanted to give up because it was so pain. That night I went to the burn unit but we are not allowed to go in his ICU room because the doctor afraid that there might be infected by virus. So I stand in front of his door and talk with him from distance. I was so sad looking at him lying on the bed straight and trying to adjust the bed to find the right position to sleep, but everything was not right for him.

             The whole night I told stories to my dad and all I think was to lessen my dad’s suffer and I even hope that if the pain could transfer to me I rather take the pain. All I think of is not wanting my dad to give up. I also went to my uncle’s ICU he told us that the first night he thought that he was dead because there is no one answering him even after he press the emergency button for hours. That night was a long night waiting for dad to sleep.

            The next day what I knew is dad already started to stand up and I was abit relieve. I knew this was God’s healing. I knew that God never fails to answer our prayer. Dad was getting better day after day.

            Today was his seventeen day being hospitalize. Everything is getting better and his blood pressure drop to a normal pressure. I really thank God for everything and all the prayers from our friend and relatives. And also not forgetting to our brothers and sisters in Christ who continuously praying for us and giving us support. It was truly a blessing for us.

            

Black & White Belated Birthday Party!

Last night was an awesome night celebrating my friend's birthday.
The birthday boy a.k.a Aiman Nizam, my "ënemy" since my first semester in university. He's one of the awesome friend I ever met and I'm glad to know him. My first impression when I first knew him is high profile, proud,.. I think it's enough commenting about him. All you need to know is I have negative impression about him. When time flies and we began to be close, he seems to be very friendly and kind.
So Don't judge a book by its cover! I realise that he's not like what I ever think of. He treasures his friendship. One thing about him is he is not a person who is racist. He form our group of friends which consist of different skin colours Malay, Chinese and Indian (The 1 MALAYSIA group)  but yet we still live in unity. They are all my best friend now haha..

Okay enough of that. Back to the birthday celebration.

We planned to give him a surprise for his birthday. Although things are not easy while planning for 1 months We finding hard times getting videos from his futsal friends due to different regions and finding a suitable location for the celebration. It's worth it because the surprise was a success!

Here's my part of video taken after many times of mistakes. I still make a little mistake though.

Here are some photo's of the day...

The birthday boy in Green.

From left : Shangkary, Me, Birthday boy, Jia Lin

Taking pictures with the main character of the night.

He and his futsal friends.

A group photo of all the participators for the birthday celebration.

Courage means a lot to me!

I wrote this song about courage to let people know that even thing's didn't went well according to plan, try not to give up and be courageous. This is because I face the same problem too. I'm major-ing in accounting but the problem is my weakest subject is everything to do with accounting. I felt like giving up, but I'm courage enough to carry on and not giving up even though I fail in one of my accounting paper.

Here goes my song lyrics...

Courage

What I knew when I woke up in the morning,

Is to face all fears and battles,

But I need to keep moving on,

Reality continue to ruin my life,

But I need to keep on living anyway.

All I need to do now is to be strong

Because things will get better,

It might be stormy now,

But it can’t rain forever.

Courage, it means something to me

Courage see me through

And gives me the strength to move on,

Courage is all I need now

Whenever I’m falling down,

Courage holds me and pulls me up.

When I find myself in a path that leads me to two way,

I must not be afraid

And keep moving on.

Someday I’m still fighting to walk towards the light

But I need to keep on living anyway.

All I need to do now is to be strong

Because things will get better

It might be stormy now

But it can’t rain forever.

Courage, it means something to me

Courage see me through

And gives me the strength to move on,

Courage is all I need now

Whenever I’m falling down,

Courage holds me and pulls me up.

New Room-mate!!

#Throwback#2daysago

                Today, I’m excited to be back in hostel after two weeks of break because I really want to know who my new roommate is. The person who am I going to stay with and spend most of the time with in my room.

                I’m back to my hostel and I found a letter on my table. It’s by my roommate!! This is so sweet but the letter is kind of funny. She introduce herself and roughly describe about herself. She said she’s fat, tall and quiet but I don’t have to worry that she will annoy me. But who cares, she sounds friendly and I’m excited to meet her.

                Previously, I have a roommate but she seldom in the room. I can only see her before I go to class, in the evening and some of the night only. She came back to the room just to take bath and went out again. And most of the night she come back after I go to bed. That’s why I’m not so close with my ex roommate. You won’t believe it if I tell you that I only spoke to her less than 20 times in  1 ½ year. I always envy people who are close with their roommate and have someone to care of them when they fall a sick, but I don’t have such roommate since the first day I move in into this hostel.  

                Finally today my 5^th semester, I have a new roommate! Hahaha..I’m just too excited. Hopefully I can have a roommate like my other friends…

#The first day I met her

She doesn’t look like what I have imagine. Maybe I have a creative imagination, imagining how my roommate looks like. :D

Anyway, she’s kinda quiet but I tried talking to her and we felt so awkward. Perhaps this is because we just knew each other. Her mum told me to assist her if she don’t know anything. I will try my best to take good care of her and be a responsible elder sister now, since she’s three years younger than me.

# The next day

We chit chat and try to get to know each other. Well, now I don’t feel awkward anymore. I can chat anything and share anything with her.

I feel that at least I will have a roommate to be there for me if and share problem with if I have anything problem. At night, I also don’t need to be sleeping alone in fear.

 Yay! Now I don’t need to be envy with my friends because I have a roommate like them too.

Praying for Miracles to Happen

It’s around one year my dad go for dialysis.

# THROWBACK #

It was one of the day in April 2013, I found out that my dad was diagnosed with kidney failure. Both of his kidney failed to function. I knew that something wrong is going on with him the few weeks back because his face seems to be worry and stress out. His leg starts to have a bit of black marks and it get worse day by day.

 One day, I tried to talk to him and ask him what’s going on. He didn’t want to tell us the truth because he knows that we will be sad if we knows his condition. Finally after persuade him, he told us about his health.

                He only went to the government hospital for regular check-up. I felt sad inside seeing my dad taking more than 10 tablets per time but it seems like he’s getting worse.  So my dad decided to go to the private hospital for check-up and what the doctor told him is to immediately stop taking the tablets that the government hospital gave because it’s spoiling his kidney. After a few check-up, the doctor persuade him to go a dialysis because both of his kidney is totally fail to function which is so dangerous for him. That time, my heart felt like broken into pieces knowing that my dad’s kidney was totally fail.

                The doctor said that he need to have at least one kidney to help him in filtering blood to filter out all the toxins in the body and he can find a donor. That time, my brother and I thought of donating a kidney to my dad but he wouldn’t want to accept because he said we are still young and still have a long journey to go.

                 He said when he first get to know that he have kidney failure, he couldn’t accept it. He didn’t want to go for dialysis because he can’t live a normal life like others. He need to go for dialysis 3 times per week and around 6 hours per day. He said it was his biggest regret not to consult a few doctors.

                I couldn’t control my feeling and sadness every time my friend is talking about kidney. My heart is like cut by a knife. One day I cried in front of public because my friend suddenly talk about kidney. I usually can control my feeling but on that day I didn’t know why my tears just flow down my cheek when I heard about kidney but I felt better after letting all my sadness out. My friend was so shock to see me cry because I’m that type of girl who always happy go lucky in their eyes. Actually they didn’t know that sometimes deep down inside of me is just a sad girl. I tried to hide my feelings by putting on a fake smile because I didn’t want my friends to worry about me.

                Till now my dad still goes for dialysis. Sometimes when I was in the dialysis centre with my dad, my heart is like cutting by a knife. Looking at the nurse poking a needle into his vain. I knew that he is suffering. Every night, I pray to God hoping that his kidney will be functioning back and cure him.

I’m glad to know that my uncle is going to donate a kidney to him and I pray that the operation will be a success. Now, I still continue praying for my dad and I hope that one day he will live a normal life like us too.

"Never give up, because miracles happens everyday"

Do I believe in long term and long distance relationship?

Someone asked me this question “Do I believe in long distance and long term relationship?”

       I just barely gave him a short answer. But here’s what I truly and honestly think about long term and long distance relationship.

        It’s rather difficult for most people for this kind of relationship and I think long distance love without having seen the person at least once per week is risky but Yes I do believe in long term relationship. If there’s trust, honesty and patience between both of the couple there will be no problem with that if both put their whole hearts into it and are willing to be patient until the day they can be together.

          I believe the key to a successful long distance relationship is communication. I'll try to communicate more than once per day if we are separated by distance. I will give him a call or text him everyday. Or maybe Skype him if I really miss him. I'll try to do anything to make this relationship works. Even if we are busy, I'll try to find time for a quick video chat each day. I will be glad enough if I'm being able to see his face and know his condition by video chat him. Sometimes it's also good to concern about the one we love by asking what am I doing. At least I knows that I'm on his mind every single time. A relationship cannot thrive if the only we have is phone calls. Sometimes, we need to see each other in person at every opportunity and try to visit on regular schedule if possible.

         I think that long distance relationship will work if we have a personal object of the person we love. We will able to hold on to something that once belong to the person we love. This will provide comfort, happiness and the thought of being with the person.

I feel that if we truly love that person, we willing to wait for that person even if we are far apart. You just willing to sacrifice ourself by waiting.

As long as both people are willing to make the relationship work and be faithful, true love will survive and anything is possible.

"Distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. It's for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It's for those knowing a good thing when they see it, even if they don't see it nearly enough."